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Over time, I thought I knew what was mine
I accepted that fate made it what it was meant to be

I can’t claim to be the innocent party at all – that I confess
But I knew that it wasn’t right from start

Oh life, the more you live the more you learn,
That things don’t turn out the way you hoped it to be

Loving and learning goes hand in hand
Until it’s “you” who’s stopping yourself from doing the living

So, be your better half and learn to live with a good attitude
Don’t block the blessings and destiny, from getting to you

 

Love,

Sue

P.S. – It’s been a while, but I promise to write more. ^_^

Change me, Lord

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It’s a new year, it’s a new season,

I pray that my heart, will be more like Christ

Change my heart Lord, when I get so blind,

Keep me accountable, when I get stuck in the ugliness of this world.

It’s simple to pray and ask that the Lord to change someone else’s heart,

But only to find out, that it was me who needed the changing.

Anger and bitterness often times cloud my view when I pray,

God says, “hold on child, it’s you who needed the disciplining.”

So here I ask again, change my heart Lord, change the way I pray,

And begin every prayer with, “Change me, Lord.”

I want to start off the year 2014 with only your blessings. In Jesus’ name, amen.

~Happy New Year to all the bloggers out there! May this year brings you lots of new perspectives, God blessings and a willingness attitude for God’s purpose. 🙂

Blessings,

Sue

~picture is not mine and credit to Proverbs 31 Ministries.

Note Taking

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~it’s been a while since my last poem, i hope you enjoy this one. btw, photo is not mine.

It’s so easy to let my tears drip freely

And it’s so easy to allow the bitterness of life to overwhelm me

I’m easily deceived by what my feelings tell me

And I try so hard not to take notes of these useless thoughts that torment me

The notes on my heart, what are they about?

Clearly, it reads instability, am I right?

There’s no right or wrong answers, no, nothing in between

But just the need to run away

It’s in those moments that I’m afraid of what to expect; if at all

Yeah, those notes on my heart

It’s like I’m speeding in a car, but knowing that I still have to step on the breaks

Because I fear of what repercussion might loom ahead

I can’t claim to understand much about my thoughts,

That is something that I’m still searching for

I don’t think this poem makes any sense, but heck, I can write whatever I want because this is my blog

Okay, back to note taking again…

Well-Meaning Soul

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I seek a well-meaning soul that desires to be radical

But there are distractions, and it won’t allow me to be different

It’s easy to sell myself to empty pleasures of this place

It’s easy to be conned by the façade of what seems to be pretty

If only happiness is not so hard to find, If only I knew every answer

Then I would say my ultimate existence in life is complete, yes?

All the while someone is calling my soul to break away from these thoughts of emptiness

To enter the secret place of security and satisfaction

Therefore, I have to make a choice

I’m desperate and I know It, I’m feeling pressed to make a decision fast

Why is it so hard for me to decide?

I can almost feel the walls forming an alliance against me

So, I’m holding my tongue and I’m holding on to my thoughts

I’m going to break through and decide right now

Life. Life. That’s what I want. I want to live.

Whatever it takes, I’m choosing forever with this someone.

I’m choosing consistency. I’m choosing faith.

 

~Picture is not mine and my poem is inspired by Proverbs 31 Ministries.

This love is not right for you…

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~picture is not mine.

 

It’s an empty seat, and you’ve not return

Somewhere along the road, the anticipation has lost its charm

I hope you understand that I can’t hang around

The world’s too big for me to just sit and hope

My lips are sealed, not one word from my mouth

Your secrets are hidden, your truths has no meaning

I’m letting everything go, I’m letting you go

Please understand, I can’t wait around

Goodbye, my love

This love is not right for you baby

 

by Sue

Jalapeno Cheetos

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Jalapeno Cheetos makes me smile.

Jalapeno Cheetos makes my tongue go wild.

Jalapeno Cheetos makes me sing all my favorite love songs.

Jalapeno Cheetos makes a great Sunday night snack.

Jalapeno Cheetos makes me alive!

I love this stuff.

~late night randomness. please excuse my cheesiness. 🙂

Let Me Dance

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Sometimes my voice is too loud for me hear that my heart is shaking in fear.

I’m afraid. I’m afraid of change. I’m afraid of losing control.

I try my best to list all the reasons why, but it’s no use.

And at times, it hurts so bad. I’m hurt all over if I’m not careful. I’m losing the battle.

But what am I to say? This darkness that stares me in the face. I can’t fight it alone. Oh no, I’m so afraid.

Help, help, I’m out of control. I’m falling apart. Someone save me.

Stuck in a spiral of my indecisiveness, why, why am I like this?

I feel feeble and utterly crushed at times; I mean, I can’t even hear groan of anguish in my heart.

My guilt has overwhelmed me, it’s like a burden too heavy to bear.

I’m like a deaf woman who does  not hear because she is stuck in a deep hole which she created for herself.

Like a mute who can offer no reply in her defense, I can’t speak at all

I am so helpless, I am so worried, I offer no excuses for my actions, for I am guilty, no justification.

But, But even so, among  all that is against me, I am still alive.

Because I am waiting upon the Lord for my strength. I will wait for His answer.

I’ve confessed my iniquity to Him; for I was troubled by my sin

Though many are judging me now and hating me, I am right with God. I am honest with my Father.

I have no more fear, I am redeemed. I am free from my troubled past.

My Lord has not forsaken me, He has totally set me free from my destructive self.

I am free to dance, so please, just let me dance.

 

~late night poem inspired by Psalm 38.

 

Brightly Lit

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Brightly lit across the skies,

The stars are twinkling right before my eyes

 

I’m ready to learn, I’m ready to let loose,

I see my destination, and I’m ready to choose

 

I’m still not sure how it will all pan out,

But my eyes are wide open and I’m not going to pout

 

This journey will not be easy, no, not one bit

Don’t faint, don’t cry, and don’t throw a fit

 

I’m keeping my head up, I’m keeping my heart open

A miracle is what, I choose to let happen

 

So much to hope for and I’m packing up for this travel

Into my destiny, I choose to unravel

By Sue